Numb

For the past five months I've been waking up to numbness on Sunday mornings. Numbness is not a pleasant feeling both, physically and spiritually, but it's a real affect on the body and spirit. Numbness is defined as being deprived of physical sensation or the ability to move; incapable of action or of feeling emotion; lacking or deficient in feeling; indifferent. Thirteen years serving in pastoral ministry came to a halt six months ago. For the past five months, each definite description of numbness has been evident with me. In July I was told by a person I trusted, that I was going to be transitioning to another pastorate in west Tn. After two months of poor communication, of which I was always the initiator, I decided to resign and remove my name from the situation, due to the manipulation and conniving efforts of one person to keep me from transitioning to that appointment. I will write more to the whole situation at a later time (with that said, Pastors, beware of the family that shows up on your doorstep as you're moving into the parsonage) but today, I still wake up numb six months later to the whole process and lack of explanation from the person that said "trust me". My trust meter is numb. My spirit is numb. I know that life will go on...but today, life is numb.